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ah today marks the end of melanie's five day sleepover at my house, and i think i'm gonna miss it quite a bit (: talking/watching heroes till 3am every night (which explains my eyebags)

and i guess at home, the past few days have been quite :/ sometimes, with everyone feeling sleepy and grouchy and emotional, or pms-y in my case haha, and sometimes it can get quite frightening for us. but ohwell at least it's all over now, and stuff.

and i never thought i'd cry at all the entire time, but i guess when you watch the coffin travel to the incinerator on the automated tracks with such a sense of finality, it's hard not to.

but i know that after that moment everything would just go back to the way it was, and life will just go back to normal again, which is quite sad. i hope i become a nice grandmother next time.

and anyway, as i said, life does go back to normal.

melanie and i went shopping at vivo in the afternoon today, and zomg i need to like start starving to save up soon :/ i should just go and die hahahaaa. then met augi after that to do og stuff haha it's really funny hearing how our ogling can't get his name right hahaaaa. and then reached home quite late, considering we sat at macs for three ours cutting and gluing stuff, to the amusement of many little girls at macs who came over to our table to check out what kind of arts and crafts we were doing hahahaa.

and tmr there's storyline at 8. zz shall sleep now to save my complexion and attempt to make my eyebags go away. nighttt!

Okay it’s the wee hours of the night now, but I figured if I don’t take the time now to pen my thoughts for the year, I don’t think I ever will have the time anyway. So yes, here goes.

This year has been one hectic year, with the many ups and downs starting from the beginning of the year. With all the drama and friendships broken and mended, tested and strengthened, formed and fostered, continued and deepened, I can truly say that jc has been one eventful year for me.

And I guess I’ll go step by step.

I guess in jc, people change and it’s inevitable that we’ll drift apart because we no longer spend as much time with each other, and all of a sudden our priorities and circle of friends change. So I’m quite sad that I’m no longer as close to some people, as I was before during a certain period of my life or something, but I guess the memories are enough to last a lifetime, as clichéd as that might sound. And I’m quite amazed at my ability to laugh at all the silly things we did together last time, as I read through blog archives or old birthday letters I typed/ received. And of course, with the many incidents occurring throughout the year, they would inevitably leave an impact on certain friendships, and with that render them unable to return to what it was before. Friendships that I didn’t think would be able to be salvaged came back, and friendships that I thought could go back to normal couldn’t. I’m really glad for the former, and with regards to the latter, I guess all I want to say is yeah, thank you for the ups and I’ll try to put the downs behind me (: I know nothing’s going to be the same again, and as much as I didn’t want to accept it last time, I’ve come to accept it now. And I guess I just want to say that despite everything else, you were really a good friend, and I really enjoyed talking to you and everything.

And of course, throughout all these ups and downs, I think I would have died if not for my friends. Who would talk to me until the wee hours of the night, listen to me cry and sound like I’m going to die of grief, or seen me cry (though not many), and would say a million nice things to cheer me up and make me feel better. I really don’t know what I would have done without all of you. There are definitely many more people out there who I would like to know, and as much as people say the world is just too big, I’m just glad that I’ve found friends who I know will last a lifetime, and who are the best friends in the world anyone can ask for. Best friends forever isn’t just a clichéd assurance. In fact, it doesn’t even need to be said but we can all feel it deep down inside. And when stuff happens, you know who your true friends are, because they are the ones who will go out of their way to make sure you’re okay, and will do so much just to make you smile again. And you know who matters the most to you when that name comes to mind when something happens and you just need someone to be there for you.

There are too many to name, so I shall just apportion shoutouts to groups of people/ people who are very important to me!

Okay in view of what happened yesterday, family first. I have no idea what we will be like when we grow up, and as we see ugly scenes happening sometimes I think our greatest fears are that we wonder if we’ll all end up like that in future. But pinky promises that we won’t. And I know we’ll keep to that. I know I’ll never say it out and everything, and I have no idea if they’ll ever know, but sometimes I have an uncontrollable urge to hug my dad, for instance, and tell him that I love him. A lot. I don’t even see him much, considering how I’m usually out for the whole day and everything, but yeah I think for whatever little time I spend with him, I love him for it. And I really want to go on a holiday with daddy again. Ahh the conversation last night comes to mind, but it’s too tedious to type everything out, but I guess it’s really sad how we place friends so much above family sometimes, and yet when we realise it, it seems like it’s too late to change anything and we don’t bother. And we were thinking, what if we died tomorrow, and didn’t have a chance to tell all the people we love that we love them so much. So here goes:

Okay, firstly to the cousin who means a hell of a lot to me. Melanie. I have no idea when we stopped having our many silly little quarrels and arguments, and started becoming so close. And we both know that we’re really very lucky people, because it’s not often that cousins actually like talking to each other so much. Come to think of it, you’re my longest sleepover buddy ever, ever since we were like 7/8 haha (: and thank you for being there for me, whenever I need someone, even if it means having to talk on and on with only whispered mutterings from you in the middle of the night. Thank you for being the most wonderful cousin anyone can ask for, and thank god we have each other sometimes.

2A2B. Ah what can I say but this: <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 one for the each of us. I don’t remember how we started out anymore, and how we even arrived at this silly name! And haha we’ve done so many things together already I can’t remember just exactly how many times we’ve gone kbox, how many sleepovers we’ve had, or baking sessions etc, but I will never forget that no matter what I’m doing, just as long as I’m doing with you all, they were the happiest times of my secondary school and jc life. We are all so different in fact, but we were all brought together by our love for kbox and our friendship has remained strong because of our love for each other (: and I think that’s how our friendship has managed to survive the many ups and downs and challenges that jc has brought us. We may not see each other as often altogether anymore, but each time we meet, the same warm fuzziness comes back and I am really glad to have found friends like you all. Jolyn – the one that I’ve known the longest, and the one who understands me best. I know I can always count on you to listen when I have a problem. I will never forget you sitting at mrt stations with me on emo Mondays, or your daily smses idea and everything, and it actually worked (: so thank you so much, my dear friend of 5 years <3 Jiakang – haha I remember pok and I calling you a b**** sometimes haha when you got really annoying, but of course, your sweetness and niceness overrides that by a million times over. Thank you for all your concern and everything and smses and whatever, because they really did (and still do) mean a lot to me. Princess – compared to last year, we’ve spent wayyy less time with each other this year, but nevertheless even if I forget what we smiled over, cried for and argued about, I will never forget that for that whole year we smiled and cried together, and that alone gives us a special bond that will last us a lifetime I think. Bob – I miss you so much! I remember last year how at farewell assembly we cried and told you not to leave, but we also promised that we’ll keep in touch and everything. This year has shown all of us to stay true to that promise, and I think you’re right, these are really timeless friendships <33 because we have proven that distance and time is not a factor, because everytime we meet it feels as wonderful as ever (:

Pok- haha this year I’ve definitely gotten a lot closer to you, and although you may say really annoying things sometimes, your sweet mushiness and all the nice things you do make me forget all the annoying things you say haha! Thank you for being there for me, especially when I’m pmsing in the middle of the night and everything, because I don’t know what I would have done if you weren’t talking to me and saying all those stuff over msn. <33 and your “you remind me of all the prerogatives of being female” HAHA <3333333 i will NEVER ever forget it! i can even memorise it!

TOUCHRUGGERS. I never expected to make such good friends in jc, so I count myself really lucky to have found such wonderful friends in you all. DEARESTESTESTESTESTEST Angel haha (:– ahhh I don’t know where to start, but thank you for phone calls, and late nights and hanging around after school and all that you’ve done for me. I remember in your cupcake letter to me, you wrote: “lucky was the day I signed up for touchrug, because it was through it that I met you” and I laughed so hard at its cheesiness then, but you know what? I feel the same way too. Because if not for touch, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to be so close to you, and talk to you so much and everything. I will never forget the day you stayed up with me until like 2am, even though we had a match the next day at 8 at nus haha. <33 so thank you for being such an ANGEL :D Val – haha it’s true, when did we start getting so close I have no idea. But thank you boyfriend, for all your advice and the nice things you say. I think that sms you sent me about “I know it doesn’t sound the same..” was one of the sweetest smses I have received recently, and I never fail to smile when I read it (: and like I don’t know, but I guess friendship’s really amazing sometimes huh (: Karen, shiya, bong – haha I love hanging out with you all too, even though you always suan me haha! But like I really have a lot of fun with you all (: so yeah I’m glad I found you all through touch! Fifi – haha it’s cool how we meet once again, from being relay runners all the way back in sec two (: and I love you a lot dear captain, even though you suan me damn a lot haha because DEEP DOWN INSID E I KNOW YOU LOVE ME HAHAAAAA

I dunno and there’s also people like Carmen <33 haha who I enjoy talking to a lot too because CARMEN YOU ARE DAMN CUTE AND FUNNY and (: thank you for telling me stuff and everything (:, and of course there’s my new good friend from dryrun2 shun HAHAA (: and we can talk and talk quite a lot I’m quite amazed (: I’m quite sure orientation will be fun!

And since I got to meet and catch up with a lot of people this hols, I realise how lucky I am to have so many wonderful friends and how much I miss seeing them. And strangely, being apart from them sort of brought me closer to some of them Sabrina <33 haha zomg 5 years already, and although we’re not as close as before, I think our friendship is still pretty strong (: and haha my most memorable phonecall this year to you I think was the one when I came back from Cambridge haha (: Kelly – KELLY DARLING <33 zomg I miss you quite a bit haha! And I’m really glad we got to go out twice this hols (: I LOVE YOU GIRLFRIEND. Cherylw – haha san gen cao (: and yeah ndp preview was great, and so was our recent outing (: I’m glad guides brought us together, first as chickies (zomg this was AGES ago haha how silly we were last time!) and then san gen cao (: nattay – my favouritest junior of all time <333333333 ahh I’m really glad to have you as my junior my dear girl, and we certainly do quite a lot of memorable things, like going crazy over Felicia chin and Julian hee, and you and your cookies haha and eating at the nice Italian restaurant along the bay (: Rachel – yes, like you wrote in your Christmas card to me, I have no idea how everything suddenly just came together, but anyhow I’m glad it did. And yeah if you need anyone I’ll be here for you (: and yeah strangely how this year we’re actually closer than we have been even though we were classmates for the past four years Xiuqing - HAHA you’re the only one I can say SWORN SISTERS FOREVER to and not think it’s corny, because it’s proven true (: I mean since primary school hello, it’s super cool how when we meet now we can still talk and talk for hours on end! (: Nicole- haha quite cool that I went out with you that day because of our bet, but we had quite a nice chat, and I’m glad we went out. Yeah thanks for sharing and listening all at once (: lina – haven’t been out with you in ages, but yeah FRIEND OF GOD KNOWS HOW MANY YEARS haha! Through silly fights, funny times and everything (: haha thank you for being such a great friend haha I remember the day we had that faithful mrt ride home and we went to bedok interchange because I didn’t feel like going home!

Okay this is really long, but I think I just want to say WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT FRIENDS <3 jc has been as hectic and as unpredictable as we all expected it to be, in some areas more unexpected than others, but I’m glad that we’ve proven all those clichés right. “I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you”, “best friends forever”, “you can always count on me”, “I’ll stand by you” etc never rang so true. When I was down, you all say the things I want to hear, be it cheesy cheerup lines, or siding with me and bashing up everyone else, or reassurances that I’ll forever have you all, everything meant so much (and of course they still do). I think this year I’ve grown up a lot, as has everyone, inevitably changed and matured as certain incidents forced me to, and learnt a lot.

I have no idea what next year will bring, or if it’ll be spent mostly mugging hard for the As but all in all, times when things hit rockbottom-low aside, this year has been a pretty awesome year, and thank you everyone who made it so awesome for me, even if it’s not a constant thing, and you did for just a short period of time.

and p.s. thank you everyone who messaged me/ asked me if i'm okay and stuff (: yeah i'm really fine, no worries (:

hmm shall start with the daily updates first before i forget.

christmas eve was spent sleeping in. oh wait no, i woke up at 9 to book jaychou concert tickets (: and my mission was a success! but just after i booked tickets for princess and i, i got an sms from jiaks in china begging me to help her book cos china's connection sucks. so being the good friend i am, i stayed up for another half an hour haha to refresh the lagging sistic page and helping her book two tickets. then i went back to sleep, before getting woken up by augi's call haha. so i went for lunch with augi, cheo and weiyuan and went shopping with them in an attempt to find og presents but haha to not much success. before going home and slacking my christmas eve away and typing a bit of my year end reflections.

woke up late on christmas again, and headed to town to meet karen at art friend to shop for og gifts, once again haha, and our hunt took us from art friend at taka, to daiso and spotlight and carrefour at ps! and we both got what we wanted yippee (: haha had to go for some christmas party after that, where there was some weird incident haha you can ask me to tell you if you want, but i shan't blog it down because i'm not sure who reads this. then at 10.30 we got a call from the hospital, rushed down but it was too late. everything was quite sudden and like i dunno it hasn't struck me yet, or maybe i'm just like not feeling anything but yeah it was a whirlwind of affairs, and now melanie's stayng over for the next few days while the adults sort everything out. last night was a hectic rush of cancelling/rescheduling appointments for the next few days, and catching our breaths and everything, but yeah.

and because of the sudden turn of events, it led melanie and i to think about family stuff, and we talked, laughed, cried, reminisced, and made pinky promises. and slept at 5 plus in the morning in the end.

and this morning, i think we still didn't feel anything, so after the rites and everything i walked out to meet shun augi stuart sheng weiyuan and cheo for yongtaufu for lunch. and then after that i think they went out, but i couldn't (shouldn't) and went home instead. before helping out with whatever and having a quick dinner with carmen and geri which was nice nonetheless, and yeah i'm really sorry that our hot siglap date was cut down to a really quick dinner :/ but yeah

and the next few days are just going to be routine affairs and everything which like changes my holiday plans quite a bit, and i guess it annoys me a bit sometimes but yeah. and i do think it's quite sad that this time we're all quite nonchalant about it, as opposed to the last time something like that happened. :/

but at least even though i'll hardly get to meet other people/ spent lesser time with them, melanie's sleeping over till saturday! (:

hmm shall finish up my worddoc of stuff now goodbye, and happy boxing day (:

____ says:
i keep giving him that "you made yijun so sad" look subconsciously


<3333 girlfriends forever hahaa

angel says:
frickin funny man!!!!!!!!
yijun. says:
hahahaaaa
angel says:
this is even funnier than all the jokes i've heard this year

HAHA TAKES A REAL LIFE SCENARIO TO OWN ALL THE JOKES MAN. haha i'm laughing damn a lot too. actually, i've been laughing damn a lot whenever the whole incident comes to mind haha

i haven't updated about dryrun, but it's been really tiring so yeah i'm forgiven (:

basically no point blogging about what we did, because we're not supposed to, and next year's j1s will see (:

but basically i think i had a lot of fun talking to new friends (shun!) and catching up with old ones. it was especially nice the second day, at sentosa when shun and i sat on the sand and played with the imported sand and talked, and after that when i walked along the shore with val for the whole stretch of the beach and when we came back carmen accused us of being super les, but haha THAT'S WHAT BOYFRIENDS ARE FOR (: haha <3 you boyfriend (: then after that went for dinner with karen and val, and after that we were so zonked that karen said: i think we're too tired to make conversation already. HAHA yes that's really how tired we were.

but yeah, it's been real fun hanging out amongst the bw9-12 ogls (: haha i think we're going to have great fun next year and our ogs will be super lucky to get us HAHA we've already thought of interesting places to bring them too (despite augi thinking that singapore is really boring haha) YAY SO EXCITING HAHA T'AKOPACHI :D hahahahah

thank goodness for the break on thursday, where i slept in haha i slept from 12-1pm the next day and felt really rested (: before dragging my lazy ass out of the house to go the ecp to cycle. haha originally i had intended to cycle the whole of the 42km eastern park connectors route, but by the time we cycled to changi airport (which was really quite nice btw, watching the planes fly by) it was time to cycle back because our butts hurt and we only had one hour left before returning the bikes. but nevermind, i shall aim to complete the whole route one fine day!

friday was the most tiring, i can't rmb exactly what we did, but i rmb being super tired by the end of it. storylined for a while befre having dinner and then went home and went to sleep almost immediately.

saturday was more storyline from 8.30-6 haha damn tiring but after that took mrt home with val who was going to her grandma's house at bedok YAY (:

then sucks haha last night i got my allergic reaction again, so i spent the better part of today sleeping. in fact i spent the whole day sleeping. woke up at 1 to eat, before going back to sleep and getting chased out of my room at 5 again by the silly kids central people who needed to use my room to film some show zzz.

just came back from touchdinner. haha 8 of us only but haha i think the most exciting part of the night was spotting ___ and ___ hahaa photos another time. (photos of us only la haha) yeah. quite tired, so i shall go sleep now because i have to wake up at 9 tmr for a mission :D

zzzz i am quite pissed off now, but i know i'll be alright tmr yeah.

but still. zomggggggggggggggg.

okay fine, i think i have a problem. yeah i know i should stop thinking/feeling whatever. or maybe i'm just really grouchy from the lack of sleep.

okay fine. i have a problem.

warning: i think this is going to be a very long post.

okay i am really really zonked, but i shall make sure i blog finish tonight, if not i'l never get down to doing it because i think the next few days will be really hectic and busy.


but I HAVE HAD THE MOST AWESOME BIRTHDAY EVER, the best in a long while (: so thank you to everyone who made it so wonderful <3


okay shall start with pok's balloon!


and thursday was great too. met angel, shiya, bong and val after work for our dresses outing! zomg angel and val i <3 you! like a lot a lot a lot haha i can't believe you bought dresses :D haha and of course, it was great fun sitting around talking about lots of different things, where we had some new revelations about bong the closet p*** addict HAHA and basically it was just really nice hanging out (: and thank you all for the present and the birthday song haha (:


at marche (:

underneath the vivo christmas tree (:

shiya's bday cupcakes haha!

friday! my actual birthday (: thank you everyone for the wishes, advanced, punctual or belated.


started work by going to court but then i was let off after lunch, so i met kelly for a nice lunch at gloria jeans at raffles city <33

and then i met melanie at kembangan and i got my first birthday cake haha with the retarded candle that refused to be extinguished so i had to blow and blow and blow zzzz -_- but the cake was really yummy I LOVE YOU MY DEAR COUSIN <333

and then haha baby is the best haha he sang me the birthday song like 5 times (:

and then haha had a party at night <333 thank you everyone who came! haha it was really fun just sitting around and eating pizza and spaghetti and eating ice cream out of tubs :D my favourite pasttime hahaa (: but all in all it was just great spending time with everyone like old times (:

ice cream (:
cake!
family (:
friends yay <33333333

saturday haha had touchrug friendlies in the morning, and as a result of not having exercised in close to two months i became super unfit haha super embarrassing when derelyn was exclaiming about how unfit i was from the sidelines woahhhh but okay fine i shall go for more training or run more or something. haha then as punishment for becoming so unfit, angel and i were like half ordered by derelyn to referee our first match ever haha! quite funny we were terriblyblur haha. and then after that bathed and the coaches treated us to fish and co for lunch (:

and then after that met augi for co-ogl bonding at escape hahahaa quite retarded but fun (:

sunday! finally the first time i managed to actually sleep properly in ages, so i woke up at 1 and went for birthday lunch with family at sakae. came home to watch dou niu yao bu yao ZOMG IT'S DAMN SWEET <3went to jiak's house after that! we were such sloths and refused to get out of the house to ice skate, so we ended up watching hong xing da jiang and ordering in macs haha! ANDDDDDD i rmb lily's comment about felicia chin woahhhhh damn funny hahahahaaa! and also facebooking and blog hopping and everything haha quite funny! then at like 11 plus we decided to go to the bridge/stadium to play sparklers, and as usual we had hell load of fun (:

haha can you see what it says! 2a2b <3 at the kallang river!

HAHA 2A2B <3333333yay i draw nice round circles!

haha then finally we went back to her house past midnight, like delinquents hahahaa and ate yoghurt and had a nice talk yay (: friendsss ftw haha!

the next morning, we obviously woke up a lot later than when we were supposed to haha (: but we decided to get our lazy asses out of the house to go for ice skating (: which was really fun! my first time but i'm not bad at it :D yay!

and zomggggggg THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH <3 haha i had a birthday surprise there, which was really damn nice (: haha jiaks and jolyn pretended to have a tummyache from the yoghurt the night before, which i believed! haha and then they got the person at the place to dedicate a birthday song to me, though it sounded nothing like a birthday song hahaaaa and jiaks and bob skated in with the cake haha! i don't have the photos, they're with princess but zomg i was really damn surprised! and it was so cool (: so THANK YOU ALL OF YOU (: and i think what princess said is right, we all really haven't changed much, thank god because sleepovers are as great fun as ever and i love you all damn a lot <333



after that, met xiuqing for mr magorium's wonder emporium, which was really cute (: and went out for dinner, which was great, since the last time we caught up with each other was june and haha now we have lots of stories to tell (: love you sis haha <3>

and here, i shall dish out a few thank yous (:

1. thank you for the 00:00s (melanie, princess, val, kelly), the 23:59s (haha angel's INTENDED one, and daryl's), and bob's intended 14:12 hahaa (:

2. thank you sabrina and bib for the happy birthday sweets they're really cute (:

3. thank you pok and jiakang for the tank tops each haha

4. thank you nicole for the realy cute book <3

5. thank you shuli for the nicely wrapped present hahaa and of course, the nice present haha (:

6. thanks bob, queenie, xiuqing etc for the damn nice presents,

7. thank you everyone else for the wishes, advanced, punctual or belated yupp (: i feel very happy looking at the 40+ msgs in the birthday msgs folder in my phone (: i would list everyone out, but kind of sian and narcissistic only haha so yeah la, as long as you wished me and i know it then can already la (:

okay dry run tmr zzzz

i've really had the most awesome birthday ever, but i'm also really tired now from going out every single day this week and sleeping only 5 hours a day and walking in court shoes all day i think my feet are getting deformed.

nevertheless, it was all worth it and damn awesome and thank you for everyone who made my birthday such an awesome day, with all your love and stuff you did, real or intended hahahaa (they're always the funniest). shall blog about it when i have more time. don't think i'd do it justice if i type anything today (:

<333

HAHAHA ZZZ I THINK I AM A BIG BULLY >< but birthdays come once a year only so :D :D ANGEL AND VAL HAHA I LOVE YOU HAHAHAHAHAHAA as of tmr you all will own your first ever dresses (:

HAHA I LOVE TODAY (: TONIGHT, RATHER.

because i met pok for dinner and was quite shocked to see her with the humongous balloon (: YES POK I LOVE YOU <3

(ee the html screwed up i'll repost the photo when i get home tonight!)

haha and then had dinner at fish and co glass house yay! which was really pretty and really yummy, and the live band was singing really nice songs (: so we just sat there and talked and talked and talked and listened. haha and someone celebrated birthday but then pok and i refused to celebrate mine there haha because it would be so embarrassing, and we felt that the two of us having to endure the birthday rap thing just wasn't worth the cake haha! but the seafood platter is really yummy (: YAY GOOD FOOD FTW haha!

haha then went looking at christmas lights again and taking pictures with my balloon (: and we ended up at starbucks for peppermint frap YIPPEEE (: haha and the balloon was so big it kept hitting people in the face as we were walking around i think i pissed quite a few people off. but haha pok i think we have telepathy (: i can't believe you actually wanted to get me the carriage one (: because i saw it on monday actually and thought it was really cute YAY BUT THE ONES YOU GOT ME IS EQUALLY NICE (:

oh yeah met jiaks for lunch today too! yay (: lunched at coffee club and managed to catch up quite a bit haha! anddd zomg i was such a retard i happily went off with my pouch and left my bag at coffee club haha so jiakang had to go get it then i met her at Raffles Place after work to collect it back ><

YAY EVERYDAY THIS WEEK ROCKS (: i feel really really inexplicably happy tonight and haha all the people that i'm talking to on msn can testify for that. i used to think that laughing at your computer screen in the middle of the night was kind of retarded, but it happens so often now i think it becomes normal haha (:

and :D :D :D when i got home i received a surprise in my mailbox (: which made me really really really happy! and i shall look forward to my mail everyday from now on <3

ah i really love all my friends it's really amazing how every little thing they do can have such a big impact on me. i know some people will say that it's not exactly very healthy to be so dependant on your friends, but for now i'm just happy that i am. and feeling lucky to have some of the best friends in the world (:

and if anything, sometimes when i feel like i've drifted apart from some people (esp since i was looking through my letters folder in the com just a while ago), i get nostalgic when i think back and everything seemed to feel like super long ago and all relegated to the chapter titled MEMORIES in my mind, but i'm just really glad that we still keep in touch, and that once upon a time, our friendship was so beautiful. and that's really good enough sometimes.

and sometimes you want something so bad, but you know you'll never get it because you'll never ask.

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cordial =/= normal.

okay i think i shall finish up my japan post with more photos (:

FOOD <3 if you're nice enough to me, you might get something from the above pile :D
HAHA ROCKS DAMN CUTE (:
i love the sky from the airplane <3 it almost seems like this is what heaven would look like.
haha me in the yukata (:
<3333 kidsss <333

i'm really glad i went on this holiday in the end, and that we decided to go to hokkaido because it was really fun (: okay plans to get my brother to tell me about carol anne failed terribly, but i think i'm quite glad i got to spend a bit of time with my family, not in the heart to heart talk or whatever sense, but just doing things with each other, because i hardly get time to do that in singapore. and although okay i think i get damn annoyed with my mum sometimes (i think we just dont see eye to eye on a lot of things) i think the holiday was quite enjoyable (:





and like i got a lot of time to myself also haha like how i will type stuff on my laptop at night, or think about stuff at night and reflect or haha like when i went to the hot spring alone and just sat there and thought through stuff haha. and yeah all i can say is that it's really been one eventful year, but i think i've grown up quite a bit. and in retrospect, be careful with what you wish for. because it just might come true and you'd regret it.





okay i haven't been thinking much also, because i've been so busy everyday i'm hardly at home, but i kind of like where i'm at now, just going out and catching up with all the people who mean something to me, but whom i haven't had a chance to talk to in ages simply because of our schedules and hectic jc life. and i can't believe the holidays are almost over. like zzzzz but i guess it's the overseas trips that took all the time away, so i'm going to make the best use of whatever's left and go out more haha.





work today was quite fun. went to the subordinate courts in the morning for a decision, and after that followed the lawyer to the subcourt lounge which was haha bustling and full of life. did some stuff in the office before lunch where i had chicken rice haha! i miss all the local food so i ate a lot, uncharacteristically. and one of the lawyers said: it's nice to meet a girl with such a healthy appetite. OH THE IRONY HAHAHA.





went to the supreme court in the afternoon for some update thing which took about a minute haha. but got to see the new building and try out the new system and everything. yay i like the lawyers they're all really nice to me haha! then went back to the office to read up on more cases. you know the more stuff i read about divorce cases, it's going to turn me off marriage. ha all i have to do is to read one a day, and i get really scared :/





finished work a bit earlier and went off to meet cherylw for soup spoon (: her first time there! haha yummy food, as usual though i thought today's food wasn't as good as the one last time haha. and because the UNHOT carmen HAHAHAHAAA pangsehed geri and i today (okay la not your fault haha i'm just kidding, but maybe we'll kick you out of our club all the same HAHA) to eat half price gelare waffles, i was kind of still craving for them, and so cherylw and i went on our search for gelare and ended up at ps haha. okay, wasn't much of a search anyway haha. yes so we had our waffles and talked more (: which was realy great haha, updating each other about our lives since the last time we met to watch the national day preview (: i think we did look like an odd pair though, with me in my working clothes (haha court attire today) and heels, and her in her tshirt and shorts hahaha. then we walked around for a while, before going home. and now i'm really shagged haha. but i think it was definitely worth it (:



yupp i'm amazed how friendship works sometimes (:

and haha yay birthday's in 3 days (: but haha i'll be in court on my birthday i think haha how interesting. zzz

and you know what? i don't give a damn anymore. (haha val will kill me, but) fcuk you.

oh ha shall continue a bit with japan post then talk about other stuff haha!



we went to this aquarium place haha which was actually closed, but they specially opened the place for captain clive and friends HAHA our tour group name haha damn funny!



and then the next day we went to this samuria historical place which was quite interesting! there was this ninja performance and i took a picture with the handsome ninja with a nice shap nose haha (: but hilary says he's too old haha then my daddy went: of course la you expect him to be 17/18 ah! hahaa! and the ninja maze thing was SUPER COOL too quite exciting haha!



okay and photos haha i'm lazy (:




ee the octopus so grosss
the two babies (:
HAHAA SO CUTEEE he was imitating the seal with a weird face haha
prettyyy!
YAY LOOK HOW HAPPY I LOOK HAHAHA



basically the weekend after i came back, lazed around and packed room for a bit. met melanie in the afternoon at parkway, which was SUPREMELY CROWDED and we were so turned off we went to macs opposite and sat there and talked and talked and talked cos we havent' talked in ages. then went back to parkway and attempted to walk around for a bit, but it got too cold and too crowded so we went to breadtalk and i bought her a small cake and we bought the mr snowman bread for breakfast haha!



and then walked out and sat outside haha where i sang her a birthday song and we ate the cake haha damn funny i think when we go out everyone will think we're lesbians or something haha. and she laughed at me because i got quite excited at the fake snow thing they were having haha this thing was blowing soap suds into the air to create fake snow, because i saw the real deal for about a week just a day ago haha!



yeah then sleepover was HILARIOUS. showed her ahem's photo (haha pok and jiaks i think you know who i mean) and she waited in anticipation for it, and when i removed my hand from the computer screen we just burst into guffaws hahahahha! and then facebooked around to look at people HAHA and talked more.

i think we're really really lucky to have each other (: i mean how many people end up with cousins that they can tell just about everything under the sun to, and whose friends say we are carbon copies of each other haha (cos she was talking on the phone to her friend at night, then sometimes i couldn't figure out whether she was saying something to me/to her friend then her friend kept laughing at me ): ) haha MELANIE I LOVE YOUU <3 haha i'm sure the letter said it all (:

oh and mummy brought kira over for a while, and left her with me! and then i realised next time i really don't know how i'm going to take care of kids by myself for extended periods of time ><><

sunday was shopping at vivo yippee. spent most of the time eating though and talking again haha before trooping off to cityhall at around 6 to collect some stuff from jolyn and catch up with her for about slightly less than an hour. and i had so much to say to her i rattled on and on like a motormouth until after i finished and was walking up with her i felt like i had a headache HAHA.



then met kaleni for dinner and we went to prego at swissotel, where i finally satisfied my craving for italian food since godknowswhen, and GOOD YUMMAYYY italian food at that (: so yippeee yayy i eat until damn happy haha and the bread and dip and tiramisu was great too so yay (: and haha i got driven home safe and sound (:



today i began my first day of work! quite interesting, because i'm going to court for the next few days and so i spent today reading up on all the cases for the next few days! and i read this divorce case file, which was super drama. like full of the smses, and PI photos etc and like the husband is really such a bastard! zomg i think i'm going to throw him looks of death when i see him in court on thursday! like wth la he, when i read the whole file i was like damn worried about how marriage is going to turn out. what if like after marriage the guy changes damn a lot :/



yupp and after this super exciting file i had to read some boring litigation suit about some monetary dispute cos it was going to court tmr, and then i thought i could just glimpse it once through, but the auntie asked me who i thought was going to win, so i was forced to read it properly once through again and i said i thought the plaintiff was going to win (even though we're the lawyers of the defendant) and she said the lawyer himself said that too. HAHA SMART ME (:


yupp and then after work i met nicole in orchard for my starbucks treat :D haha so fun everyone is interning during this period so we all meet each other in working clothes haha (: and it was quite nice talking and walking down orchard road looking at the christmas decorations (:

okay must be in court at 9 tmr! shall sleep soon (: nights ppl (:

我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走

haha melanie loves the songs i play (:

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

ahh the enchanted songs are so nice (:

anyway today it snowed the whole day, so we had snowball fights and i tried catching snowflakes with my tongue! (: but now i'm really quite tired, and we have ski lessons at 10 tmr! so must sleep now! night for now (:

oh i have another thing i want to add to my "places to go list" HAHA iceskating and pulau ubin and kbox with 2a2b! because kallang leisure centre just opend at jiak's house so we can do all that and have a sleepover (: